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Friday, November 30, 2007 { 11/30/2007 09:53:00 PM }

woke up real late today. about 3 plus 4pm. haha too lazy to get up. even if i did, also nothing to do. so yeah. hahaha laze on the bed. hehe got up, used the laptop for awhile. then about 5plus i went to get ready as i meeting ruiliang at 6pm at red circle to have dinner together then go for cg. met eevann too. we ate at the gourment paradise foodcourt. hmmm i ate dumpling noodle. didn have the mood to eat or what to eat. XP not that hungry, but i still ate. after eating, three of us went to breaktalk to meet peixuan. :] i took some random picture of a bread with a lion face that looks exactly like eevann.! ain't i right?! XP hehe after that we took train to yiochukang.

reached das house, we had prayer meeting for a while then we had our cell group. today's message was BEING FREE FROM GUILT.
hmmm being guilty is not fully wrong, is not fully correct. but there are a few things guilt can do. example, first: it torments you emotionally and spiritually. second: guilt makes a person feels fugitive. (as if that person did something illegal and have to run away everytime.) third: guilt makes people feel self condemn, self critical. fourth: guilt make a person become more sensitive in his actions, constantly thinking if he do is wrong or right. keep on thinking of what other people think about him. they always have the mindset that whatever they do is wrong etc. sigh.

*God doesn use guilt to save people.
in a way God doesn use guilt to punish people. so do we. the wages of sin is death, not guilt. The holy spirit brings conviction, not condemntion. and conviction bring about repentance. but condemntion is a general heavy weight of negative feelings. and we should never let our emotions and feelings led us!

*God doesn't use guilt to motivate us.
he encourages us, not using of guilt to talk to us, not to discourage us. we all dont like people to use guilt to talk to us, to force us. we dont like people to compare us with a person that is way better than you in some ways. we dont like, so does others too. and soo..... we should never speak negative words to 'wake' a person up.

*God doesn't use guilt to prevent pride.
we should submit ourselves to one another. it is very important to be HUMBLE. we should never be to proud as everybody will start to dont like you as you are being too arrogant. you will start to lose friendship, trust and leadership. XP

*God doesn't use guilt to prevent future sins.
we should not or never use our past sin as a 'model' to make us remember not to repeat the same mistakes. as it is not helping us but making things worst. we should forgive and FORGET! we should not keep the sin we have done in mind. we struggle with guilt, guilt will drain all our energy emotionally and spiritually, thus we will not be able to move back and fight back. guilt is complexs. its not a easy thing to play with if we start to dwell in it. you will be thinking, then...............

what should we do when we feel guilty... and want to be free from guilty-ness.
firstly... we got to come to God first, boldly! to obtain mercy and forgiveness (repent!). and that, we forgive ourselves and seek for forgiveness if we have hurt someone. we must acknowledge, confess to the lord and he will definitely forgive us. and he forgets what we have done wrong. so we have too. as he is a very forgiving God. (: and then.... FORGET IT! =] and he forgets what we have done wrong too. so we have too. hehe everybody make mistakes! dont tell me that you never... not even once?!?! I admit i have. you too. dont try to deny. lol hahaha. we should never dwell on our mistakes and guilt too long as its not good for us and it will make us draw away from people as you're afraid to repeat the mistake again. soo we should just repent & sin no more! forgive and forget!!! remember this. XD
secondly... we should reset our expectations of our life. renew our expectations of ourselves to a much more reasonable level. we are not robots. each and every one of us have a limited ability to achieve something. we are all different. differentin many ways. talented in many ways. but one thing is that we should learn how to deal with guilt! definitely. :] its no use feeling bad. cause nothing will happen. as in nothing will solve it. only we will fall into much guilt and allow our emotions and feelings control as until madness. hahaha lol i dont think you want that to happen. hehe :] take care! later! =D by the way!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ABIGAIL!!! =D